The journey that has been confusing yet illuminating at the same time; most days are the confused and lost-like feeling ones. Clarity is very rare and only occurs when you least expect it; in the midst of the holy mess. Despite being a believer of the path and a practitioner of the way, the many events and occurrences that unfold everyday at times blur the focus. I once heard a saying, “if the path has heart, follow it.”
A seeker, a learner, a pathfinder, always wants to discover the next step, at times too eager that she loses her present objective, however, the universe has a way of reminding her the that there is no destination without a journey. She is truly lost in this whole realm of self, in this confusion, at times they arise false passions, desires that splurge their way out craving for just a little thought; the seed that only requires just a drop of water to flourish.
That is the problem with a free spirit, it is wild and cannot be tamed. It always believes and hopes that the purpose is cause of truth and right karma. The supposition that she has to hide who she is so as not to shine too bright else the world won’t be too open to her, out of fear of the light she emits is a delusion.
She is the world, and the world is her who responds when she calls out the word cosmos. The keys of life have been handed over to her, she builds and opens new doors with each footprint. They say beings fear what they do not understand, but that is not entirely true! They do not realize that which they do not understand is actually fear itself.
Chogyam Trungpa, “The bodhisattva vow acknowledges confusion and chaos, aggression, passion, frustration, frivolousness as part of the path. The path is like a busy broad highway, complete with roadblocks, accidents, construction work and police and is quite terrifying. Nevertheless it is majestic, it is the great path saying that from today onward I am willing to live with all my chaos and confusion as well as with that of all other sentient beings.”