Endurance

Staying faithful in times of trials is a task. There are days when you cannot see what lies ahead because everything seems so foggy and at times dark.

When you are going through a trial season, it is easy to get caught up in complaints and murmurings. It is easy to give up and let the obscurities overshadow you.

This past week, random things have been happening around me and to me. My blog was suspended at some point and now I cannot access it from the app through my phone, I had this surge of total weariness and burn out engulf me, low motivation energy levels adding to external factors of job hassles, mental and emotional exhaustion. If I was engaging in physical combat I would have yielded.

I had also written an article on financial investments and I lost the whole of it because of the error I kept getting while trying to upload it. I really felt bummed because it was so informative and I was in the zone. It’s important for me to write when I am in the zone. But I trust I will get the words to write another article on money matters again.

Anyway, the number of times I have felt like withdrawing from all the uncomfortable places and feelings in my life of late have been numerous. There was an article I wrote just recently and I pointed out the lessons of that particular day being,

—Not to run from the flames when the heat gets turned up.

The amazing thing that I would like people to understand is, if one is determined to really know God’s will in his/her life, God is able to make a way. Not even one! Many ways to reveal to you what He wills for you.

However, He does not answer us according to what we desire. Now that I have brought that up, it is interesting…if you notice, human beings have this habit of insisting on something to be done to their benefit hoping they will get a positive response or a response that agrees with their idea.

And true to the fact, more often than not, we are able to convince others to bend to our own will.

However, God does not operate in that fashion. Even if we asked a thousand times: if He said go right, He will not come around and say, “okay you have nagged enough go left.” This point right here! Is where we give up and start doing our own things because we think God does not understand how much pain and hurt we are going through.

I finally came to a place where, I said out loud in the dark while walking home.

“Okay God, I choose you. Even if it hurts, I choose you. I will not run from the flames. I choose you.” I think at some point I started shouting so the devil would hear!

I have made terrible judgement calls in the past and I know that road is never pretty once some decisions are made because it takes more time to get a breakthrough; which, would have been avoided in the first place had I obeyed God in the first place. 

But thank God the Holy Spirit is my helper, He is faithful to teach me about trust and patience.

The truth is, being a christian is not a walk in the park and if you are having a smooth sail then that would be a first. To walk in God’s commands and with trust, takes so much faith.

Hebrews 12 has taught me that plainly.

I love the Bible for that. It never sugar coats my nonsense. It is always straight to the point, very harsh when it requires me to style up and very loving when I need mercy, compassion and forgiveness.

Therefore, I straighten up my weak knees! (belly laugh) The Bible actually says that. 

Hebrews 12:12
Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.
(NIV)

And walk in the faith that I am moving towards the most blessed destination no man has ever seen.

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