This is one subject I thought I would take a long time to write about because I am still in the process of learning how to trust God. Trust is something that we take quite some time to establish before we can firmly say, “I fully trust.”
It is a process, and each day it grows: by the little miracles we share with each other, our service to one another and most importantly to God.
I struggled the most with trust when I began to seek God because He was asking me to do something that I had never done before, He was asking me to trust in Him in all the seasons of life; in my highs and my lows.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” (KJV)
Imagine a scenario in your family setting— one of the members of your family betrays you. The trust that was already established becomes extremely hard to regain. This is how we respond as human beings operate.
We interact with each other everyday and since we experience only the treatment of others towards ourselves and vice versa, trust becomes harder by the day because we are subjected to suspicions, rejections, mistrust others, etc..
This occurs, because we invest all our energies on human beings instead of God. We lose hope whenever we spend ourselves on people who never see or value our efforts. And whenever we go through adversities, we find ourselves alone in them despite being surrounded by family and friends.
This causes us to have doubts before we even engage in any type of relationship. These kinds of experiences eventually form mistrust in our lives to others. Thus, we automatically find reasons to doubt when God asks us to trust Him because we have experienced deep hurt in the past.
When I began my first steps of trust, the Holy Spirit taught me that I had to start thinking differently, I had to start fighting my battles differently.
Romans 12:2 “And be not conformed to this world: but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” (KJV)
Now, this was what did not make sense because God told me the first thing that I needed to do was to follow—
Psalms 46:10 ” Be still and know that I am God I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.” (KJV)
He was telling me to stop every carnal, earthly, works of the flesh and put down all my loved ones together with all the worries I carried in their regard and just acknowledge that He is in control and that He has my back.
He was telling me to carry all my problems, all my baggage and drop them at His feet, pull a rocking chair sit on it and only behold His creation! Can you believe it?
This was the most absurd strategy I had ever heard. Why? because I was always used to a fighting mind, a mind that was ready for war any time, any where.
A defensive mind.
But since this was my first assignment in my step of trust, I trusted. I stumbled many times always picking my baggage up where I left it but still meditating on that verse and with time I learnt to let go.
That was the first time I ever experienced true peace, whole peace, peace beyond my understanding.
The reason I share this is because I asked myself if I would still share the same message if perhaps I have undergone numerous adversities; the type that Job went through when he lost all his children, all his property and his servants in one day.
There is a song by (Deborah Cox-Thy will be done) that says, “It’s easy to believe when sorrow never comes your way.”
Just like Job, would I trust God and still remember that all things work together for good? Would I praise God even in my times of hardship?
The epistle of James says,
James 1:2-3 “My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.” (NKJV)
Would I still say, not my will but Your will be done? This is the true test of faith, the trust that God requires us to have in Him, to submit wholly unto Him in all seasons of our lives and to recognize that He is in control and He is sovereign even when evil prevails among men.
This is the trust that we as human beings struggle with because we question why He allows certain things to happen that He could prevent.
It is my prayer that even as I keep pressing on in faith, I will learn to be obedient to God, I will fight with the tools He has given me to keep this peace I have received from Him.
And as Paul said, “that I may know Him and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death.” Philippians 3:10
For who, and what I am on this earth is but a speck of dust. All I have, He has given me, if I lose it, I must learn to see that He is still sovereign, I must learn to be at His mercy, abandoned entirely to Him.
Job 1:20-22 “Then Job arose, tore his robe, and shaved his head; and he fell to the ground and worshipped. And he said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked shall I return there. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord. In all this Job did not sin nor charge God with wrong” (NKJV)
I, too will press on to work to attain such trust as He graced me day by day.