I trust You are doing well. This is how we begin our greetings to each other down here officially — but you already knew that. 🙂
Anyways, today, I want to talk to You about something that is extremely important to me.
That is — You.
To begin with, this year has been different for everybody. It has been different for me too. I have observed substantial changes in my life and noted other things that are also weighing me down. And I seriously have no clue how to fix them. However, I cannot pretend that I am totally helpless in some of them because I know You have required that I put a bit of effort from my end in terms of discipline, but I have been somewhat lax on that.
Reviewing the year, I am truly grateful for the growth, the correction and mostly Your promise to me of entering into Your rest.
LORD, I am making a recommitment to You this end year and I am a bit scared too, because I really hate to fail people– noting You are not just any person, but You are the LORD GOD Almighty, creator of all things; including these tiny fingers that are typing these words right now.
I desire to have a singleness of heart toward You and of the things of the Spirit. I am praying for a fully committed heart; — a heart for Jesus. Many requests have I made to You which You all know of, but today, I pray for a heart of service to You. I have no clue where You will send me or what You will require of me, so I ask for Your Holy Spirit, to lead me and to guide me in all my ways. LORD, this world is not my home. You know, — there is a saying down here that people use when they are making jokes about the hard life saying,“these streets are not for the faint hearted.” And I totally agree, this world is wild LORD; and I am those of a faint heart. So I pray for Your strength and wisdom to maneuver around here until when You need me to come home.
LORD, in this coming year, I need You more than I did this year. And I am not speaking for myself only, but for all Your children scattered throughout the world, You know us all. Each one, carrying the light of Jesus Christ in their own different places of calling. We need You. The world is getting darker and darker and the pressure to compromise is building up ever so greatly. And unless You stand with us, we will surely but faint. The forces of this world are great, but I thank God, for You are greater than the one who is in the world.
I desire to do many things. I know You see my heart always rushing frantically everyday without ceasing, at times in foolish races. (Thank You by the way, for stopping it too in the many ways that You use.) But I have come to learn as well, that You do not desire that my course be fruitless and full of frantic running. Help me in this area, to slow down, use discernment, and to seek Your counsel in all things.
Father, deliver me from half-heartedness in the things of the Spirit. Grant me a heart that is all in for Jesus, full of Your Spirit–ready and willing to follow You wherever and whenever. I really dislike half-hearted efforts even in my own life. So I pray that You may not allow this to occur, and in case it does, send a heavy conviction to my heart especially in that time…you know which time I am referring to. I really hate the spirit of double-mindedness, confusion and being neither here or there. I pray to just be grounded in You at all times, and even while making decisions whether they should be trivial or major.
Yesterday, I was meditating on something Jesus said, …And He that sent me is with Me: the Father hath not left Me alone; for I do always those things that please Him. John 8:29
For I do always those things that please the Father. I love that. Well…, I know it is humanly impossible to do always the things that please You every second– but I desire with all my heart, to be pleasing to You in character, attitude and service. Therefore, grant me such a heart, to consider Your counsel and Your approval in all my undertakings.
Hey! You know what I just remembered?… when we began this year, I wrote on my sticky board — [2020 Fighting from a place of peace and rest.] And You gave me both. Thank You.
Thank You so much for the amazing year and the rich lessons throughout the year. You are amazing, and I am truly standing in awe of Your work in my life in every season of my life. May Your name be ever magnified my good good Father.
I love you.
Always and Forever,
Your Beloved Daughter
The gypsy soul 🙂