Whoooooa! What a day! What a week!

I have just had one of those weeks where I am like…

Just feeling as though I am constantly making a mess of things. Everywhere.

And the self condemnation? It has been a losing battle in my own strength. To bear the guilt and the weight of it all (noting my perfectionism tendencies), I have been really beat down. And it is exactly in such spaces where Satan likes to heap loads and burdens of unworthiness, accusations and condemnation upon our shoulders.

The… “how can God even forgive you after all the mess that you have been creating? You’re not even a good Christian, just look at the the mess you’re making! God is most certainly done with you for sure after what you just did. Didn’t He just forgive you this morning over the same issue again? This is the last straw for sure! His patience with you is running thin”… kinds of mental condemnation.

But God.

God is merciful. God is loving and gracious. He graciously and faithfully reminded me that He absolutely will not abandon the work He began in my life.

I will share a Psalm that has been miraculously locating me whenever I am in that space (that is, feeling as though He will give up and just be done with me once and for all one of these days).

Psalms 138

1 I will praise You with my whole heart: before the gods will I sing praise unto You.
2 I will worship toward Your holy temple, and praise Your Name for Your lovingkindness [unto me] and for Your truth: for You have magnified Your Word above all Your Name.
3 In the day when I cried You answered me, and strengthened me with strength in my soul.
4 All the kings of the earth shall praise You, O LORD, when they hear the words of Your mouth.
5 Yea, they shall sing in the ways of the LORD: for great is the glory of the LORD.
6 Though the LORD be high, yet He has respect unto the lowly: but the proud He knows afar off.
7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me: You shall stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand shall save me.
8 The LORD will perfect that which concerns me: Your mercy, O LORD, endures for ever: forsake not the works of Your own hands.

The LORD will perfect that which concerns me: Your mercy, O LORD, endures for ever: forsake not the works of Your own hands. ♥️

✓ His mercy endures forever,

✓Even though/when I walk in the midst of trouble, He will revive me. He will stretch forth His [mighty hand] against my enemy (Satan) and save me with His [gracious and loving] right hand,

✓ He will perfect that which concerns me,

✓ He will not forsake the work of His hands.

He who began a good work in me will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.

Philippians 1

6 being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;

Dear Lord,

Forgive me, help me, lead me, strengthen me and embolden me to do Your will, to live out Your word in truth, to feel what you feel, to think thoughts after You, to have the same mind in Christ, and to walk this journey.

Loving Master, I need You.

Just make me salt and light.

Not just for a season or in this moment I am experiencing these emotions of confusion. Make me salt and light— daily and forever.

Amen.

Revelation 12

10 And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night.

♣