Fourth of February 2022! Yeeeeei! We made it! How I had missed my blog, and how my blog had missed me too! How we had both missed each other! Lol!
Hello! And Happy New Year!
Yes! I am a month and 4 days late. But, better late than never.
Before I even go any further… Can I just take a moment to convey — I have had such an involving day today, I am totally spent! I even thought I would have this post up by morning, but it seems like that was not going to be the case.
So, here I am. Almost my bedtime, wondering what to title this post….but, hopefully, I’ll figure it out by the end of the post.
Anyhow, it is honestly unbelievable to imagine that I am blogging about how my January has been because it seems like just yesterday I was sharing about my January 2021. And now January 2022 is over. Yikes!
Anyhow, my lovely ladies and gentlemen…I hope that you all had a beautiful month of January, and that God led and kept you in His numerous mercies and grace throughout that month.
January 2022 from my end was quiet, different, tumultuous on some days, but also quite lovely.
On the tumultuous days, it was filled with lots of hard questions that I had to bring to God and if I am honest…I am still struggling and wrestling with some of them. Questions pertaining death, suffering and most especially questions that gravitate towards why God allows certain situations to occur, or even persist.
It truly breaks my heart to see people grief over the loss of loved ones, undergo physical pain, agonize under painful circumstances, endure relationships that are violent and manipulative and such like things…
Now, being a Christian does not mean that I am not allowed to wrestle with some things. Even though I understand and stand in awe of God’s sovereignty and immutability, there are some circumstances God allows to happen or to persist in life that my finite mind is usually unable to grapple with.
And if I am honest, some of those circumstances seem so out of sorts that all that comes to mind is just getting away from the struggle of it all or to just giving up entirely. During such times, I normally feel as though the darkness is constantly overshadowing the light and it usually becomes hard to navigate through to the other side of letting God just be God and trusting in His plan completely and unreservedly.
However, it is also in such times that I recognize the necessity of God. I recognize the mutability of my feelings by weighing them against the changeless nature of God; and I am always reminded (being brought to a place of humility and submission), that that weighing balance will never ever balance as long as I exist in this flesh and blood.
8 For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, saith the LORD.
9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.
Thus, the only option left, is just to humbly pour out my heart to God and ask Him to help me navigate through the why’s of difficult situations and occurrences (even though He never does give me His reasons in many instances).
I was speaking to a good friend of mine on this issue and he told me, “If we as Christians struggle to understand the purposes of God in certain situations, how much harder do you perceive it is for the unbelievers?” And I agree with his reasoning because, probably, such kinds of hard obstacles could be the reason why most unbelievers experience a hard time reconciling between God’s nature of love vis-à-vis the suffering and pain that surrounds us daily.
And when the incomprehensible knocks on our door, only on our knees, and in humility, can we navigate through to the other side of totally releasing and trusting God with our pain and our circumstances. Because, even when it appears impossible from our side of the lens, nothing is, and ever will be, impossible from His side. No matter how impossible the situation seems.
24 And again I say to you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.”
25 When His disciples heard it, they were greatly astonished, saying, “Who then can be saved?”
26 But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Again, that is why, I believe, we are exhorted to pray. Always.
For God to make the impossible possible: in our hurting circumstances, in our failing marriages and relationships, in the trials we face, in the questions and obstacles we face, for our lost brothers and sisters, and for all the things we can present to God in prayer, we just bring them at His feet.
God-incidentally (this is a made-up word btw) this January, I also got an opportunity to read a book called: The Things I Learned From My Pastor by Eugene Lewis.
It is a twenty-one page book that is loaded with so much truth. The story behind how I actually came about it is just interesting (but a story for another day).
Notwithstanding, the book was an absolute blessing to my heart. One of the things the writer states to have learned from his pastor was – “When you are confronted with that which you do not understand, fall back on that which you understand”. This verse…
helps to bring out that truth.
Quoting from the book, he says, “people often come to us (us- being pastors) with unanswerable questions. Why did God allow this? Why is this happening? Our best response to simply say…we do not know, but, there are things we do know. We know that God is love. We know that our sins are forgiven. We know that Jesus will never leave us nor forsake us. We know that we are headed for heaven.” And the one that totally encouraged my heart was – “We know that His word is true.”
And that was all I needed. Praise the Lord! Lol! for real though it was. That God’s word is true…and so are His promises.
Now, moving on from the tumultuous to the lovely…
I managed by the power of the Holy Spirit to give up some things that had been weighing me down, namely: certain cell phone applications and cable television time of which God-incidentally was also able to resolve some areas I was wondering why they kept persisting as I had been trying to overcome them.
For instance, I had been having a hard time waking up at my set-time consistently, which is something I had not struggled with for a long, long, time…
Now, having cut off a lot of screen time, I came to realize the reason I had been struggling with some habits all of a sudden is because right about the time I began struggling with waking up early consistently, is when I had also introduced watching television (even so, being constructive TV) at any time of the day as long as I had nothing much to do.
I could spend almost three hours watching my things, then I would find that I hadn’t done my chores, of which, I would later make an excuse that I was tired… which really, had nothing to do with being tired at all, but all to do with mere slothfulness. I am now praying that I will not be tempted to things that can potentially lead me away from a deep friendship and intimacy with God in any way.
Another lovely development this January is that God reminded me that the reason I love is because He first loved me. Now, that might not sound like an over-the-top kind of thing to be excited about for some people. But for me it is. And this is because as I was reading the book of Hebrews, something struck me as profoundly beautiful– the statement that Jesus is not ashamed to call me His friend, His brother, His child.
9 But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honour; that He by the grace of God should taste death for every man.
10 For it became Him, for whom are all things, and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons unto glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings.
11 For both He that sanctifies and they who are sanctified are all of one: for which cause He is not ashamed to call them brethren,
12 Saying, I will declare Thy name unto My brethren, in the midst of the church will I sing praise unto Thee.
13 And again, I will put my trust in Him. And again, Behold I and the children which God has given Me.
There is this cross-shaped bracelet I took from my mum’s things (I did borrow it, after taking it first. Lol) and whenever life comes at me confusingly on some days… I just take a long look at that cross and the Holy Spirit helps to bring things back to perspective–that Jesus is alive, and He is coming back soon.
Still on the lovely, I also met up with some of my good friends (some of whom I hadn’t seen for a long while). We had a lovely time just bonding and speaking our hearts out which was such a blessing.
One of my friends got a job we were praying for and it was just beyond words how happy I was for that answered prayer.
Anyway, so much about a lot of my many stories for now… I am truly grateful for God’s sustaining hand throughout the month of January 2022, and for allowing me to see this wonderful day—the fourth of February 2022.
It is my prayer that this year will also be filled with an overflow of Jesus ♥️ – from the beginning to the end; regardless of whatever comes.
Being human, I acknowledge there are several times when various fears grip my heart, in the present, and for the future. And I do believe that that is normal. But because the word of God is true, I will purposely choose to focus on that unshakable and solid ground.
Lord Jesus— Be my Rock, my Anchor, my Solid Ground this year 2022.
Thaaaass it for now…from me. Seeeeeee yaaaaa! Soon! God willing:)
God-incidentally- meaning that it is really not a coincidence, but a work of God behind the scenes to bring to pass His purpose.
📷: A special gentleman