Okay scratch that, let’s just say that the first half of the past decade for me has been a bit…lemee say: leaning on the selfish side of life…which admittedly, is fairly understandable for somebody who is at the early stages of life.
I was predominantly self-centered, assertive and somewhat care-free (which one might think is a cool and acceptable way to live life until one begins see the grief, anxiety and fretfulness that that kind of a lifestyle brings).
Anyway, I am still grateful to God nonetheless for a good ten years lived, for good health, and for the rich lessons He has been imparting in my life ever since I began yielding my life to Him. And while still on that same note of gratitude, I cannot forget to be grateful to Him for my amazing parents and for both their lives.
I can say in all honesty that my heart is overflowing with exceeding joy today (even though I am downright exhausted right now) because life as it is – at thirty – is better than I had imagined it when I was in my – early – twennies (I cannot believe that I am actually going to begin saying this officially from today. Goodness!)
And the reason -for it being better- is not at all because I have got it all figured out, or even that I have invested some hefty dollar bill ka-chings in a money market account somewhere… you know? the silly stuff that the world tries to sell to humans as the epitome of rest and peace… then when you drop dead as a result of life’s pressures, all of those ‘precious bucks‘ are left in the hands of somebody else while the world proceeds to make such-like statements: ‘she had her whole life ahead of her or…life had just started going well for her… yada yada yada….blah blah blah).
And don’t get me wrong…I am not at all against saving because I do! But really that’s not the solution to attaining long-lasting rest and peace for the future.
Anyway… the reason for my joy – this very day – is simply that: when I was twenty, I had this picture perfect idea of how my life was going to pan out and looking back now, I find the whole business absolutely hilarious. And I thank God that I can actually have a long laugh about it now.
But interestingly, God on the other hand, had a better plan. And He has given me abundantly much more than I could have even imagined, asked, or desired.
The things I used to worry about and even feared so much to lose back then: my outward appearance, social acceptance, a sense of belonging in the world, an easy going lifestyle, death, etc… I now liken to smoke in the wind.
As it is now, I am for the most part all about the warm fuzzies aspects of life, a heart for service, joy and peace, rainbows and sunshines, culottes and high-waists, ragged and free, living authentically and free-spiritedly, mainly because the love of Jesus permits me to live abundantly and fearlessly authentic since He has given me rest on every side.
Furthermore, whenever I mention to people – these days – my top most priorities in life, most of them think I have either lost my marbles, or that I must be under some weird church spell or something of the sort.
Nevertheless, my top priorities in life still remain as simple as: to love those whom life brings my way (whether they be friends or foes) in the way Jesus has loved me: unconditionally, and that I live a life that will draw countless girls and boys, men and women — to understand the sacrifice Jesus made for them on the cross so that they too, may also experience the joy – or even more joy – that I experience in Him, and mostly, obtain eternal life.
The rest of the other nitty-gritty aspects of life, God has promised to take care of all of them for me (because that is His part), as long as I keep trusting in His good plan for my life in this journey of life…almost sounds unbelievable, or even ludicrous no?! But how can I argue with His word?
3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shall you dwell in the land, and verily you shall be fed.
4 Delight thyself also in the LORD; and He shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5 Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in Him; and He shall bring it to pass.
6 And He shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.
7 Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for Him: fret not thyself because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked devices to pass.
So my prayer for this coming decade, and this coming year… is for God to help me focus on what really matters: eternity.
Because wisdom tells me that another thirty years from now: age, status, beauty, fame, wealth, etc., will still remain fleeting and will still pass away. None of them is solid; only one thing remains solid: God’s word alone.
19 Do not gather and heap up and store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust and worm consume and destroy, and where thieves break through and steal.
20 But gather and heap up and store for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust nor worm consume and destroy, and where thieves do not break through and steal;
I do not desire to waste the remaining part of my life chasing the wind, chasing people’s approval of me, being rushed by man’s timelines, chasing money…etc., as I did in my early twennies.
I only want purpose; and emphatically, desire that that purpose be seasoned with plenty of wisdom, foresight, knowledge and understanding; together with people whom God will send me along this life’s journey — people who will bring out the most authentic version of me in Christ every single day and vice versa!
So…hasta la proxima vez!
Okay… Let’s just be honest, whenever most people hear anything about religion, their first reaction and instinct is probably to cringe or brush off the whole matter entirely.
Why? Most likely because it is a subject that is associated with extreme cases of fanaticism, it brings about a lot of conflicts and controversies, and even offends easily.
Religion is famously known for: manipulation, stagnation, repression, ignorance, bigotry and is too often a threat to liberty. And rightly so. I do agree. With that said, I recommend you to read two of my posts as well as encourage you to do a personal, extensive, and honest research on your own regarding this matter. Why?
As intellectuals (critical thinkers), I believe we owe it to ourselves to interrogate, examine, and ask hard questions regarding matters touching on faith rather than choosing to ignore them or even worse— follow blind faith. Click here for the first post.
Who speaks the truth with regards to a genuine, sincere and true relationship with God? Is it Buddha? Muhammad? Jesus? Zoroaster? Confucius? Joseph Smith? Guru Nanak? Krishna? Among others? Find out on this second post:
My heart overflows with a goodly matter; I speak the things which I have made touching the king: My tongue is the pen of a ready writer. Psalms 45:1
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