A Personal Psalm
Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD; for He is good: for His mercy endures forever. Blessed be the name of the Lord my God who graciously covers my sin with His mercy through the blood of His precious Son; who covers my shame with His grace and my guilt with His forgiveness.
/19 I tasted the sweetness of Your salvation in that day O Lord, and there was nothing like unto it. There has been nothing to compare to it to date. Praise the Lord God of Abraham for His great salvation. It is at this time, You did lead Your servant out of Egypt into freedom with Your mighty hand and did show her the way to go. Truly, in You Lord, there is healing; there is forgiveness and true peace; in You, there is great rejoicing of the soul – this I know all together well. In You, there is unfathomable divine wealth and riches untold – to be discovered only by men and women who will diligently and fervently seek after You. O Lord, be highly magnified.
/20 Your servant whom You did redeem with such great a love did go forth singing of Your praises and telling of Your mighty wonders to men with exuberant joy and gladness of heart. You wrought mighty works for me in that place of service and did make my feet steady and firm. You prospered the work of my hands and did spread my name abroad; You made it honourable even to those who rose to slander it. And with greater fervour – steming from profound love and appreciation – Your servant did speak of Your mighty works and marvelous doings – yes, even in the scant of knowledge. Then You called Your servant out of the land of abundance that she may know You also in the desert wasteland.
/21 With great strivings she did strive, and with much strength she did resist Your will. Nevertheless, at Your command and by Your loving and gracious hand – in much fear and trembling – Your servant did eventually submit to Your will. In the dry and arid place, You stretched forth Your hand of provision to Your servant. You shielded her from the fiery darts of the enemy and helped her out of the miry clay of covetousness and the pride of life. You trained her soul to rest in Your presence and winnowed away the anxieties and cares of this world that did always beset her; paralyzing her with fears and terrors of the future. At the potter’s wheel, your moulding hand did strip away the unnecessary argil.
/22 But my soul was brought low O Lord, when I did taste from the cup of crucifixion. My flesh was repulsed and it abhorred its bitter taste. Your servant was brought low into dejection and discouragement in the house of Your friends and among brethren. Thence, I did seek a compromise; a bargain, as I had gradually begun to do in the previous time. Surely, there is not a thought in my mind, but, lo, O LORD, You know it all together. You saw the scheme and understood my thoughts from a far off. You allowed Your servant to wander in the barren wilderness so that You may try her and reveal to her what was in her heart. And You did try me and You did find me out. In the desert place, I craved intensely and did tolerate a languid spirit. I eased off from whole-hearted devotion. Consequently, a loathsome inconsistency fell upon Your servant, burdening and weighing down her soul and spirit. But I remembered the days of old; I meditated upon Your faithfulness in my life; and my soul was downcast within me. Nevertheless, You sustained me with a willing spirit. You carried me and cared for me even in the times of unfaithfulness. You kept Your word to Your servant and did not forsake her during this time of aimless vacillation. Truly O Lord, You are a good, good Father! Be magnified for all Your marvelous works towards Your children. Be magnified O Lord, for Your face did shine upon Your servant once more; for the time spent in restless languish did birth a period of contemplative traversing in the spirit and soul; and a renewed desire to seek fervently after You. Be praised and highly magnified O Lord, now and forever.
/23 Howbeit that that was just the beginning; through tests and trials, You did try me still, O Lord, and I did come to nothing. I collapsed at the weight of trials and at the scorching heat of appetites and desires; I lusted exceedingly once again and despaired in my soul. But You faithfully and graciously brought me out nonetheless and sustained me with a willing spirit. In mercy and lovingkindness, You taught Your servant some important lessons:
(I) Self-crucifixion: naked I came into this world, naked I shall return; I brought nothing into this world and I shall take nothing out of it when I depart. You inscribed in Your servant’s heart and memory: the folly of increased desire for fine linen and enticing dainties. You reminded me that Your gracious hand provided for me in the desert wasteland that: none of my shoes did wear out and none of my garments did tear. And finally – on the same – You did make Your servant a promise: that Your grace is sufficient and Your strength is made perfect in my weaknesses. (Ref. writing principles).
(II) You taught Your servant that: that nevertheless of Simon Peter’s obedient faith – especially in the little things – is the ONLY true success. You taught me that the secret to remembering King Asa is encompassed in these words: whole-heartedness and obedience. Because obedience is better than sacrifice and to hearken than the fat of rams.
(III) Faithfulness – that in Your call and request for me to till the land for a score, doing it for nineteen, does not amount to faithfulness, and that there shall be no gain but a loss in entirety. Additionally, to do Your will with joy and gladness of heart (10:31).
(IV) Last but not least, You taught Your servant a VERY important lesson: that the effectual earnest and fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. Lord, I pray thus: that You would give me a new name, that You would help me keep my vows to You; that You would strengthen me with the strength of the weak; that You would make me sensitive and incisive to Your Holy Spirit every moment; that You would sharpen my quill for Your work; Father, that You would expand my territories and keep me from evil even as You promised, and that You would be my banner – my Lord and my God – Lord, let the prayers that I made to You – (12.05.23) – in this time and in the spirit, be acceptable to You O Father. Receive my prayers O Lord and answer me – because You are good and You are gracious. Cause me to hear and to see Your salvation and Your lovingkindness in the morning; for in You do I trust: for I lift up my soul unto You. Hear me O Lord my God this day I pray, and help me to remember these precious lessons.
In Jesus Name I pray,
Gen 32:28 & Hos 12:4
9 I will sing a new song unto Thee, O God: upon a psaltery and an instrument of ten strings will I sing praises unto Thee.
10 It is You who gives salvation unto kings: who delivereth David His servant (Wanjiku Your servant) from the hurtful sword (from all her troubles).
11 Rid me, and deliver me from the hand of strange children, whose mouth speaketh vanity, and their right hand is a right hand of falsehood:
12 That our (my) sons may be as plants grown up in their youth; that our (my) daughters may be as corner stones, polished after the similitude of a palace:
13 That our (my) garners may be full, affording all manner of store: that our (my) sheep may bring forth thousands and ten thousands in our streets (the place wherein You cause me to dwell):
14 That our (my) oxen may be strong to labour; that there be no breaking in, nor going out; that there be no complaining in our (my) streets (and place of dwelling).