This July I am trusting God for many things (hits face emoji) what am I saying!? I am always trusting God for all things. I have come to learn that I cannot do without Him even for a second.
So the Holy Spirit and I are working on attitude and vulnerability. In case you joined the bandwagon of my blog recently, I am introverted.
Yes, I freak out around people who talk to much because I am always wondering what I should tell them or thinking about how I can sneak out from a crowd, find a quiet place I can read my book, write on my journal, look at the stars, watch something inspiring, talk to God, roll on the grass, anything but small talk (cringe face emoji) in short be by myself enjoying my weirdness.
Yesterday, I was reading the story of Moses, I got to a certain verse (quoted below) and I was yelling in my head OMG! This is so me!
I relate with Moses’s story because of His background and his struggle with eloquency. Imagine, being raised in a palace and having people of nobility moulding part of who you are, then God calls you to turn against them, turn your heart from them, against their culture and their ways. I think that must have been one of the most trying tasks for Moses, on one side stands the people who you shared a roof, meals and education and on the other, your ancestors children, your flesh and blood.
He was so afraid of what God called Him to do.
Like Moses I too, struggle with articulation of words, we get along perfectly with words….. on paper
Then here, you have God saying, it is you whom I am chose. That’s why in my previous post I told you, I question Him at times, but my questions always end with trust and affirmation because only He can do it.
Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
11 The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD?
12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.”
Right here above, these are His exact words and I have to keep reminding myself that God is not man that He should lie. He said He will work on my weaknesses, struggles, strongholds, character together with the Holy Spirit, therefore mine to be obedient to Him and He will take care of the transformational process.
I enjoy my company, I love who I am, I love the freedom being myself gives me, it’s refreshing to be who I am in Christ, it’s a new life, it’s something wonderful, I am awed at the work He has done already and I know that if He can do it for me, certainly He will do it for you.