How are you guys doing?
Hopefully, you are all keeping warm and positive both inside and outside.
Remember I told you I learnt about my temperament strengths and weaknesses over the weekend?
So one of my strengths and weakness is the need to be a perfectionist which is so true. I can obsess over something until I am convinced it is perfect. This is a great trait but it also has a downside because at times, it makes it harder for me to work with others. I am always in a battle of trying to let things be and correct what others have already done.
This need to want things to be perfect also robs me a great deal of working with God.
I tend to feel as though I need to be a ‘good, perfect child’ which is no so and the Holy Spirit has been bringing this out to the surface for me to see, always whispering;
“you need to slow down on this wanting to be perfect for God.”
So I have been praying about it I have been learning a great deal.
God does not want perfect children, He wants children who are willing to do His will in their imperfections. This is the only way He can work through us and in our weaknesses.
It is funny when I think about it now, these days I am always whispering to myself “God loves me regardless, He is vouching for me, He has so much faith in me it’s crazy!”
You remember Simon Peter? Yes, the one who denied Jesus three times. I really love how dedicated he was to loving Jesus despite all his weaknesses and failures. I find, out of all the disciples he must have been filled with so much weariness from the world that to find what Jesus had to offer, he lay himself down and dared to do whatever it took to retain the love and peace he must have experienced in Christ.
He is the only disciple who dared to get out of the boat when he saw Jesus walking on water. I love reading that verse in the Bible because I have dramatized the whole scene in my head and it always plays out with so much passion imagining the raging waters.
When the disciples saw Him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.
But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
“Come,” He said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.
I mean if you read this and it doesn’t give you goosebumps! Jesus said, Come! He had so much faith in Peter and He believed that He could do it. Period. No questions! no doubts! no second guessing!
We are the ones who doubt, we do not believe that it is possible to do all things through Christ who strengthens us. He has so much faith in us it’s crazy.
But we have little or no faith in Him and in ourselves.
But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out His hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
So why did I give this example of Peter? Because in my journey, walking in Christ, I understand that I do not have to be perfect. I only have to have faith in Him who has infinite faith in me.
I feel like saying someone say Hallelujah! (belly laugh)
So, this is a spiritual journey and I get really passionate about it because this is something I am experiencing everyday, love I never had and now I get to partake and share with others.