This year has been different in its own way. If I am to be honest, my faith has been put to the test in many occasions. I have had days that did not make any sense at all, days I have been confused, days I have felt beaten, days I honestly did not want to hang in or keep going.
In all these days, there is one thing I have done however, consciously & unconsciously, silently in my closet and loudly to the universe. I have prayed.
Giving all the hurt, the confusion, the exhaustion, the weight, the worry to God. I have faithfully let go of everything… Let me say that again, I have faithfully let go of everything… to the one who has given me perfect peace. I have learnt and still am learning to cast my care, pursue and protect my peace.
There is faith that seemed almost foolish but I have stepped into it, because more than anything, I wanted to taste and see if the promises of God are really true. I love the Good News Version, it says,
Find out for yourself how good the LORD is. Happy are those who find safety with Him.
There are days I say to myself “All things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to His purpose.” My situation during such times is totally burnt up. Soot literally!
You know those things you say to yourself and wonder, “what am I saying really? This doesn’t seem to make any iota of sense.” I have sat in my low and high moments and trusted that God is in them then I have gotten up and lived my days as the child He has proclaimed I am; not perfect but accepted and loved.
God is doing a new thing in my life. I haven’t seen it but I know it, I am sure of it. He is not just doing any new thing, He is about to bless me beyond my belief and I am claiming this blessing. I call it and I am ready to receive it.
Remember there was a time I wrote a post quoting, new level new devils? Well I left out, same faithful God, more wisdom and knowledge.
I am grateful to God for the grace, for the constant reminders and cheering me through the process. I possess within me something so great, I am unable to contain it, it is a joy and a peace beyond this world.
Yesterday, while at church during the Lord’s prayer, I thought to myself, how many times have I said this prayer so unconscious of its meaning and authority?
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On earth, as it is in heaven
I am experiencing the kingdom of God now! The peace, the joy, the promises. Not in heaven, not somewhere out in the clouds but now in this moment. I carry the kingdom of God in my heart.
A new dawn has come,
A new thing is setting in place,
There is a physical shift taking place,
I am hopeful and excited about it.